Thanks to Lisa-Jo Baker at Five Minute Friday for the prompts.
Deuteronomy 30:19 (NIV) - This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live.
Choosing life is sometimes difficult, though I know it is the best thing. Some mornings I get up and ask myself how I can choose to continue on when my mind screams no! Or worse yet, when my mind is rip raring to go, but my body screams no way! Then, I go out to the store or wherever and I hear "Hey Auntie!" and one of my friends from Celebrate Recovery (CR) is flagging me down. I remember that my daily choices don't just affect me, but those around me.
Celebrate Recovery principle 8 says "Yield myself to God to used to bring this good news to others, both by my example and by my words. 'Happy are those who persecuted because they do what God requires (Matthew 5:10).'" My talking a good game about my choices isn't going to cut it. I must make the choice to "do the next right thing" for myself, as well as for my fellow struggler.
I'm giving my testimony at CR the end of March and I'm so tempted to ask to move it back a couple of months because I'm not at the weight I want to be. My thought is ...
TIMES UP (but I'm going to finish this!)
My thought is "hey, I've got a month to burn off x number of pounds." No, no, no! My testimony is not how I faked my way to recovery, but how I'm truly working the recovery principles by continuing to get up when I fall down. The fact that I'm still fighting is testimony enough. Choosing not to give up is the best choice I can make right now. Like my friend Mikki says, "If you throw in the towel now, you'll only have more laundry to do." She ain't lyin!