Friday, August 1, 2014

Five Minute Friday: "Begin"

Thanks to Lisa-Jo Baker at Five Minute Friday for the prompts.
 
 
 
GO!
 
Good grief.  I don't even know where to begin.  I've had so many failed restarts, I can't even count them all.  Every month I try to come up with different ways to do things to turn the failures of the last month around;  all to no avail.  I'm enjoing where I'm living, but I still seem to be sabotaging myself.  What IS my problem?
 
My mind is a blank this morning.  "Begin again, begin again, begin again..." is ringing in my ears.  Begin what?  This isn't like all those years of practicing music when I would screw up and could begin again.  Those failures were made alone, didn't cost me much, and eventually produced beautiful music.  My failures now are for all to see, they've cost me nearly everything, and they are not producing anything but a cacophony of dissonance and loud noise. 
 
I am so much better than this.  My God is so much better than this.
 
FULL STOP!


4 comments:

  1. Take a deep breath, sister... and begin. Right now. This moment. Because He is good, and He is not the author of confusion or chaos. He can take our chaos and make it a beautiful symphony (Thank goodness!)
    Just take the first step... that's my advice to myself this morning.
    Prayers for you, sweet friend!
    Stopping by from FMF.
    Lauren

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  2. Dear "Auntie" and sister in Christ,
    You already Are.
    Christ's work is complete in you.
    The pressing in, into Him always starts in our mind...its that fuzzy grey matter of space where the three-way struggle of Ourselves, The Holy Spirit, and Satan play tug of war. I know because I have struggled with depression since a teenager and it will always be a struggle more than likely. Sucks but true.
    "As a man thinketh so he is"...repeat what is true and good, not past failures. Learn from them, recall the sting, and bury them dead.
    Prayers and Cheers,
    Leah

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