Thanks to Lisa-Jo Baker at Five Minute Friday for the prompts.
Good grief. I don't even know where to begin. I've had so many failed restarts, I can't even count them all. Every month I try to come up with different ways to do things to turn the failures of the last month around; all to no avail. I'm enjoing where I'm living, but I still seem to be sabotaging myself. What IS my problem?
My mind is a blank this morning. "Begin again, begin again, begin again..." is ringing in my ears. Begin what? This isn't like all those years of practicing music when I would screw up and could begin again. Those failures were made alone, didn't cost me much, and eventually produced beautiful music. My failures now are for all to see, they've cost me nearly everything, and they are not producing anything but a cacophony of dissonance and loud noise.
I am so much better than this. My God is so much better than this.