Thanks to Lisa-Jo Baker at Five Minute Friday for the prompts.
GO!
When I reflect on this past year, I can't help but be disappointed. I've made a lot of progress, but not the kind anyone can see. My progress has been in internal things. Not many things on my external has changed. In the externals I still feel stuck. I'm stuck on the notion that no one owes me anything and I can't wait for someone to give me anything, including a break. However, how does that gel with the "no man is an island," no one is truly a self-made man, and you can't get to the top if you don't have someone propelling you up mentality. I keep seeing all these Facebook posts and tweets about "do this, do that, and you'll succeed." OK smart-butt, HOW does one do that? Is it something that must be accomplished with help or must I walk the past alone. Frustrating!
It's very frustrating. I know I need to reflect on the good and the bad. And I will in a longer, more organized blog post.
I would just like the image that is reflected back at me to be the image I see of myself inside. In the mirror, in my external life, everywhere. I want a better reflection staring back at me. Not one of what should have been, but one that is all that I really am and really meant to be.
TIME'S UP!
CRAP!
Such a thoughtful, honest post! I am stopping by from FMF - and I hear ya. But, I will say that I think it is much harder to make those meaningful changes inside and you should feel proud for making those. So many people live the opposite way - making their outside looking like something while letting their inside suffer from neglect. So, congratulations on making those difficult internal changes...
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