Friday, December 6, 2013

Five Minute Friday: Reflect

Thanks to Lisa-Jo Baker at Five Minute Friday for the prompts.

When I reflect on this past year, I can't help but be disappointed.  I've made a lot of progress, but not the kind anyone can see.  My progress has been in internal things.  Not many things on my external has changed.  In the externals I still feel stuck.  I'm stuck on the notion that no one owes me anything and I can't wait for someone to give me anything, including a break.  However, how does that gel with the "no man is an island," no one is truly a self-made man, and you can't get to the top if you don't have someone propelling you up mentality.  I keep seeing all these Facebook posts and tweets about "do this, do that, and you'll succeed."  OK smart-butt, HOW does one do that?  Is it something that must be accomplished with help or must I walk the past alone.  Frustrating!
It's very frustrating.  I know I need to reflect on the good and the bad.  And I will in a longer, more organized blog post. 
I would just like the image that is reflected back at me to be the image I see of myself inside.  In the mirror, in my external life, everywhere.  I want a better reflection staring back at me.  Not one of what should have been, but one that is all that I really am and really meant to be.


  1. Such a thoughtful, honest post! I am stopping by from FMF - and I hear ya. But, I will say that I think it is much harder to make those meaningful changes inside and you should feel proud for making those. So many people live the opposite way - making their outside looking like something while letting their inside suffer from neglect. So, congratulations on making those difficult internal changes...